You are Indonesian (majority Muslim) but your family is Christian converts or from one of dem non-Muslim minority groups.
You live in Dubai, Abu Dhabi, or Sharjah (UAE)
You will never migrate to a place like Canada because you dont have enough (qualifications/credentials/experience/savings/familial connections) to be eligible for a residency permit (the same barriers exist for you obtaining a US green card).
You are not in a conflict zone (UAE/The Gulf) to qualify for asylum. You can try the LGBT-persecution route, but I doubt you are that desperate (maybe you are? Anyway there are alot of fake homo refugees here).
Enjoy the baby noise advice and banter ITT, but I have ya figured out gassers, more than anyone else...just go to Indonesia or the Philippines, and find yourself one of them East Timorese or Christian Indoneians...or a Filipino girl who will appreciate the standard of living improvements you can provide.
The Gulf Arab states do immigration right, they want you there adding value to their economy, they dgaf about your social dynamics, but you have no one but yourself to blame for being weak, more so for this masochist need to broadcast your weaknesses to strangers.