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How often do you wake up feeling like you got the shit kicked out of you?

Phish

I told them to back off bcuz it wasnt their show
I can toss and turn all night, or sleep like a rock for nine solid hours, and it makes no difference. When I wake up, I hate everything, and dread the day. I always take 200mg of caffeine as soon as I get out of bed, and that makes me physically functional enough to slog through the morning routine, but I'm in airplane mode, with minimal brain function. If I'm working, I keep to myself for the first 30-45 minutes, until the fog lifts. I'm short-tempered, and make bad decisions early in the day, so I stick to solitary moron bullshit until I'm really awake.

You sound like a good candidate for MethAmphetamine therapy. Thatd probably solve all your problems
 

Turk February

Our experiences exceed yours.
I can toss and turn all night, or sleep like a rock for nine solid hours, and it makes no difference. When I wake up, I hate everything, and dread the day. I always take 200mg of caffeine as soon as I get out of bed, and that makes me physically functional enough to slog through the morning routine, but I'm in airplane mode, with minimal brain function. If I'm working, I keep to myself for the first 30-45 minutes, until the fog lifts. I'm short-tempered, and make bad decisions early in the day, so I stick to solitary moron bullshit until I'm really awake.
That's actually probably the caffeine. Not even fucking around. Try cutting it out completely for 2 weeks. Maybe have a coke 0. You might be hypersensitive.
 
You sound like a good candidate for MethAmphetamine therapy. Thatd probably solve all your problems
In theory, it's a solid plan. In practice, however, I'm one of those fags with a powerful jones gene. With stimulants, I only stop when all the drugs and/or the money is gone. So I try to avoid them, unless someone else is buying, and they have like a gym bag full.
 

Turk February

Our experiences exceed yours.
I'm pretty much confirmed at this point but I really don't care anymore.

I figured out what life really is in my less than 40 years and I'm glad to punch out sooner than later, and not have it be at my own hands.

Depressing? Yes.
Life is the most precious gift among all the gifts god has blessed you with. Don't trifle with that which really matters. 1000000946.jpg
 

aRTie02150

STEP OFF!
Life is the most precious gift among all the gifts god has blessed you with. Don't trifle with that which really matters. View attachment 262308
As much as I'd love to follow this advice I've come to the realization that I simply have reached the end of the ride and have been through enough nonsense to want to keep riding.

I've worked hard in my stupid life and have wasted my time with it. I've watched too many people around me find financial success with barely having to do a thing while I've worked myself to death over the years

I've accepted I've gotten a crappy set of cards and can only laugh about it at this point. Especially if I were to look at it from a third person's perspective.

It sounds morbid, but I can't wait until it's all said and done. I'll probably be more annoyed by all the people who will claim to miss me. Especially ones who have never bothered to keep up with me. I will make sure to haunt them for the rest of their lives if possible.
 

Turk February

Our experiences exceed yours.
As much as I'd love to follow this advice I've come to the realization that I simply have reached the end of the ride and have been through enough nonsense to want to keep riding.

I've worked hard in my stupid life and have wasted my time with it. I've watched too many people around me find financial success with barely having to do a thing while I've worked myself to death over the years

I've accepted I've gotten a crappy set of cards and can only laugh about it at this point. Especially if I were to look at it from a third person's perspective.

It sounds morbid, but I can't wait until it's all said and done. I'll probably be more annoyed by all the people who will claim to miss me. Especially ones who have never bothered to keep up with me. I will make sure to haunt them for the rest of their lives if possible.
You're not dead. I can't begin to pretend to know what you're going through and I'll admit I was being a little bit sarcastic before. But this is Alex speaking. You might be broken but you're not dead. You might feel crushed and scattered but something is still working. You're not special or magical. But you're not defeated. There is nothing you can not do if you're willing to take the steps towards what you want. If you don't know the resources, ask. Anyone will help you. It's my not easy but even some shit dick online has your back. (Don't dismiss it, a shit dick online is why I never had to sleep on the street). 95 percent of the people you know here and in the real world are here for you. We can't magic away your problems. But we can help. To the best of our abilities.
 

aRTie02150

STEP OFF!
You're not dead. I can't begin to pretend to know what you're going through and I'll admit I was being a little bit sarcastic before. But this is Alex speaking. You might be broken but you're not dead. You might feel crushed and scattered but something is still working. You're not special or magical. But you're not defeated. There is nothing you can not do if you're willing to take the steps towards what you want. If you don't know the resources, ask. Anyone will help you. It's my not easy but even some shit dick online has your back. (Don't dismiss it, a shit dick online is why I never had to sleep on the street). 95 percent of the people you know here and in the real world are here for you. We can't magic away your problems. But we can help. To the best of our abilities.
Thanks for the kind words, they're not being wasted as I understand where you're coming from.

But the fact of the matter is I may not be physically dead, yet, but I am dying.

I've looked for the resources the moment I found out the situation, but realized those resources are so out of my league that it's hilarious.

The amount of money it would cost in treatment would completely bankrupt me for 3 lifetimes. I didn't work 20 years for me to lose every single penny I've ever made to treatments that aren't even guaranteed to do anything.

Doctor had his talk with me and I believe he expected me to break down but I just sat there waiting for him to finish so I can just leave and not think about it. It's amazing how a doctor can talk about these treatment options like they're affordable and standard like taking a Tylenol. Glom over the fact that you'll never be able to afford it without going into unrecoverable debt.

It's been some time since then and now it's gotten worse. Mornings used to suck but now they're overwhelmingly bad. I'm awake now and sick to my stomach and have to be up in 6 hours for work.

I'm able to function just fine by the time I get to work, but dread knowing I'm gonna go home and wake up feeling like shit again the next day.

As Jimmy would say, It's a tough one man.
 
Thanks for the kind words, they're not being wasted as I understand where you're coming from.

But the fact of the matter is I may not be physically dead, yet, but I am dying.

I've looked for the resources the moment I found out the situation, but realized those resources are so out of my league that it's hilarious.

The amount of money it would cost in treatment would completely bankrupt me for 3 lifetimes. I didn't work 20 years for me to lose every single penny I've ever made to treatments that aren't even guaranteed to do anything.

Doctor had his talk with me and I believe he expected me to break down but I just sat there waiting for him to finish so I can just leave and not think about it. It's amazing how a doctor can talk about these treatment options like they're affordable and standard like taking a Tylenol. Glom over the fact that you'll never be able to afford it without going into unrecoverable debt.

It's been some time since then and now it's gotten worse. Mornings used to suck but now they're overwhelmingly bad. I'm awake now and sick to my stomach and have to be up in 6 hours for work.

I'm able to function just fine by the time I get to work, but dread knowing I'm gonna go home and wake up feeling like shit again the next day.

As Jimmy would say, It's a tough one man.
Thoughts and Prayers Brotherman. Not to give false hope, but there are some so called "kooky" alternative medicine practitioners who can work wonders. Some people would call Dr Sebi a kook but i know folk that cured themselves of his methods. Either way you shall be immortalised by The Brotherman.
 

Turk February

Our experiences exceed yours.
Thoughts and Prayers Brotherman. Not to give false hope, but there are some so called "kooky" alternative medicine practitioners who can work wonders. Some people would call Dr Sebi a kook but i know folk that cured themselves of his methods. Either way you shall be immortalised by The Brotherman.
If Dr. Jordan Peterson taught us anything it's that you can always find a life as a gay man by eating meats. Is it a happy life? No. But it's a life.
 

Not Child.

Boq Legion does not exist
As much as I'd love to follow this advice I've come to the realization that I simply have reached the end of the ride and have been through enough nonsense to want to keep riding.

I've worked hard in my stupid life and have wasted my time with it. I've watched too many people around me find financial success with barely having to do a thing while I've worked myself to death over the years

I've accepted I've gotten a crappy set of cards and can only laugh about it at this point. Especially if I were to look at it from a third person's perspective.

It sounds morbid, but I can't wait until it's all said and done. I'll probably be more annoyed by all the people who will claim to miss me. Especially ones who have never bothered to keep up with me. I will make sure to haunt them for the rest of their lives if possible.
As long as you have your health, you're blessed. Chronic pain and the sysiphean yearning to fix it at any cost is truly the most tragic aspect of life and sucks that the majority has that waiting for us in old age, but there are many who were misfortuned with suffering it before their time.
I knew a girl in university who was suffering from juvenile arthritis, born with brittle bones ... wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Probably in a wheelchair now.
 
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